Saturday, September 4, 2010

4 September 2010

Well, still not able to talk to TL... Actually what happen between us??? I really don't know... Counted, almost 1 month we're like this... A month ago or I should say before a month ago, both of us are just close to each other... But now, totally like stranger already... Why??? This really hurt me a lot.... He was here today but I can't look at him like what I used to be... He also ignoring me as well... Haiz... Still the same??? Sad me... I thought we won't be like this... We are really like strangers... I really don't like this... I had cried few times whenever I think about it... Even when I'm in office, I'm holding back my tears... But once I can't hold it anymore, I acted like normal and went ladies and cry... Well, possibly he don't even know how I feel when he did this to me...

I guess he's going out with friends... Maybe he already in a new relationship and that's whey he don't want me to be close to him like we used to be.... Even if like that, aren't he suppose to tell me?? Now, it's like we never know each other... Just like I am the person he only want to be with when he not happy with something and when he is in a good mood, he find others... What am I to him??? Is it because he don't want me to like him so he did this to me???

Still remember he said he need time to settle his mood... 1 month not enough??? I'm really going to be crazy soon because of him... He just don't understand what my intentions are... I'm not hoping to be his girlfriend... I just want him to be my special TL and sayang me like he used to be... I wish that he could share everything with me whether it is sad or happy things so that I can concern him more.... But now, seems like I have to stop all these which I really don't want to... TL, honestly, I really like u very much... It doesn't matter if u don't like me but please don't ignore and avoid me, can or not??? It really hurts me in this period...

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