Haiz... So many years passed but I still can dream of him... This time I dream that I slapped him and I kissed on his wound then I told my younger brother, Kai, not to tell anyone that I slapped and kissed him... Before this, I also had dream which I can see him there with me but those places in my dream mostly took place in our primary school.. Never once came true...
Why?? I thought I already forgot about him?? Well, not that I want to forget him totally.. I just want to forget the love that I had towards him... For so many years already, both of us still like normal friends... Doesn't mean that he don't know that I like him... He knows about it but he acts as if nothing happened... I also don't want to farce him because now he already got a girlfriend... I don't want to spoil their relationship (although I don't even know who the girl is).. Just being like this is good enough but why I still dream of him?? I can easily post this here because I know that he won't come to my blog.. He doesn't even know that I got a blog here.. Some friends of mine will know who the "he" I mention here.. But some don't know...
Although I found him in Facebook, but I never chatted with him there before... He seldom online or maybe the time he online I wasn't.. Both of us really not destined to be together... That's why these happens to me and only in my dream... I can't realize them in real life... That's why the sleeping me had dreams of realizing things that I wanted all these times...
Alan, you might not reading this but I really want to say it here... I really didn't have the intention to get closer with you... I just want us to stay like this forever... You as my friend and me as your friend... As long as you still takes me as your friend, that's really enough for me...
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