Things that is hard to say it out..

I'm not sure for myself but I feel like this is the first time i feel very uneasy... I don't know what to do.. I feel so blank.. I feel so blur.. Feel like my soul is no in my body... Mentally lost!! Why?? What happen to me?? Is this because of missing someone too much??

But why this time is making me tired and soulless?? Trying to find a way to keep contact with him is so hard... Not able to see him is already suffering... Now, not able to keep in touch with him is even worse.. Everyday think of him.. Think back the memories we had together... Although those days are long but to me, those few days just like few hours... Too short... That is the reason why the memories came to me everyday and make me so miss him...